xvi. I want to have a baby! Now na!

Yeah, seriously. A baby. An infant. Yaknoe, who wails and you breastfeed. I know this is a stupid idea but yeah, I want to have a baby.

But hey, don't get me wrong. Though I want to have a baby, I am NOT doing anything to make it happen. Srsly. Cross my heart. And I am not at all planning anything to make it happen. Srsly again. Believe me.

So you may ask what made me think of having one when some are afraid of having it since it would mean responsibility. A BIG one. So I'll answer you with this: I have friends, a few, that at an early age have babies already and I found their babies cute. Except for the fact that they are sometimes a pain in the ass. But I don't think it'll be that hard since they are cute and cuddly like teddy bears or something. Plus, I think it's a great joy to see your baby walk for the first time, or talk for the first time and do funny things. The baby's progress is something more than lovely to witness. And it keeps you busy and happy (I guess) at the same time. Plus, it inspires you to do good in whatever you do to ensure a bright future for your baby. Yeah, that's it. I envy them for they have babies to make them happy.

But then again, I am not saying that I am unhappy or uninspired or a lazy ass who has nothing to do so she's looking for some BIG responsibility to keep her busy. It's not like that. MMkay? And again, I am not (at all) planning to have one right now or soon. I can't fakken have one because I don't have money to begin with. I can't even buy myself a cute dress or a book. And I know that I do not know how hard it is to have a baby because you have to give up a lot of things which I may not be ready yet to do so but I know that it's fulfilling to have one.

I still have a lot of things to keep in mind and a lot more things to accomplish. I am not even halfway through with my list so it's not possible at this point in time. Maybe 3-5 years from now after everything's stable enough to support a family then that's it. But DUH, that's toooo long. I am excited to have a baby. I want one now :[

Oh shut up.